Waiting.

I'm a little less hopeful than I was the last time I blogged.  I had Botox; it may have helped a teensy bit but nothing outstanding.  I decided not to try the stimulator yet because my neurologist suggested I try Botox again before knocking it.  Sometimes it helps more the second time than the first.  I can't have it again until March, though.  So I'm back to waiting.

I do have a plan of action, which should be encouraging, but I'm a little less than encouraged right now.  Those teensy moments when the Botox did help, I was pretty much pain-free, which is a big deal.  However, I still had all the other migraine symptoms, like nausea, dizziness, just plain feeling bad.  A treatment like Botox or a nerve stimulator will only take away the pain.  The other symptoms--which are often just as bad as the pain--will always be there.

So I feel like I'm sort of at a dead end.  All that's left to do is wait.  But I'm prepared to wait.  David writes in Psalm 39:7, "And now, Lord, for what do I wait?  My hope is in You."  I'm ready to wait for relief, yes; but I don't have to wait to live my life.  My hope is in Him, so I have everything I need right now.  I may not be able to live a full life according to the world's standards, but the Lord has a plan.  I don't have to spend my time waiting; He's fulfilling His plan right here right now.  I have to depend only on Him, and He is already working.